My Life V

2005-04-25T20:31:00.000+08:00

hugs kiss
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~~About you~~
Name?	Chel
Age?	15
Weight?	45 kg
Height?	168 cm
Do you have any sisters and/or brothers?	yes, I do
Who do you live with?	my folks
Any pets?	nope..
Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend?	nawp.

~~Love status~~
If no to last question skip the next couple, if yes what is their name?
Their age?
What is the age differance between you two?
What attracts you to a person?	personality // attitude ;; eyes.. ^__^
Are bi, homosexual, or straight?	straight
Do you like dating younger or older or does it not matter?	age does not matter,, but actually I don't like to hook up with younger guys. wahaha..
What does love mean to you?	it's only a friggin feeling
Have you had sex ever?	nawp
If so when was the last time?
Have you gave or recieved oral?
Where is your dream date?	stargazing.. haha whatever.
What should the first kiss be like?	romantic and should tie knot inside my stomach. haha!

~~You party animal~~
Do you party?	yea, I do =b
What is your favorite alochol drink?	err.. any would do
Do you smoke?	nawp
Do you do any other drugs?	nahh..
What is the stupidest thing you have dont while under the influence?

~~Favorites~~
Food?	anything that taste good..
Color?	pink! xb
Animal?	hamster.. maltese..
Person to be around?	bestfriends.. friends..
Relative?	cousins.. everyone
Song?
Band?
Singer?	kyla
Name?

~~Hugs n Kisses~~
Do you rather a hug or a kiss?	hug
Would you hug a random person?	no
Would you kiss a random person?	nahh
Who do you like more Nicole Kidman or Drew Barrymore?	neither..
Would you kiss Lindsey Lohan?	yuck!
Would you kiss Matt Damon?	say who!?
Do you hate this survey?	err.. no comment.. xb

~~Okay well its almost over~~
Who is you best friend?	Ren.. I miss her loads..
Why are they your best friend?	'cause she's great. wee~ hehe
Which person do you hate that lives near you?	..
Which relative do you hate the most?	..
Why?	..
	yea, it's obvious xb
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2005-04-25T19:59:00.000+08:00

What is your stand on.....
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Abortion?	baad.. im against it
Death Penalty?	baad..
Prostitution?	shoOt. baad..
Alcohol?	err.. no c0mment.
Marijuana?	im so against it..
Other drugs?	against..
Gay marriage?	no comment,.. they're human too, ya know
Illegal immigrants?	no comment..
Smoking?	against..
Drunk driving?	baad!
Cloning?	BAD!
Racism?	against..
Premarital sex?	err.. bad! xb
Religion?	no comment..
The war in Iraq?	bad!
Bush?	WHATEVER.
Downloading music?	for! hehe..
The legal drinking age?	no comment, sure!
Porn?	yuck, bad yan! xb
Suicide?	no comment.. im suicidal. =b
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2005-04-25T19:28:00.000+08:00

Okay, so what happened to me these past few days? Oh well, nuthin much. =) Just the other day, I was mean to Amy. =( Im sorri gurl, I didn't mean to..
Eh kase after dismissal that day, I was on my way to the parking lot, shempre uwi na.. then I bumped to Amy..

Me : Ahem ahem.
Amy : Ahem ahem! Hi Chel! [ or sumthin like that.. ]
Me : Give me a reason why I should talk to you
Amy : Um.. because im here?
Me : What's the big deal!?
Amy : That's the big deal! ...... Err.. Bye.

Then I didn't respond. Ewan, parang nabigla lang ako. Cold war kase kame eh.. She's not being herself anymore. I despise the fact that she lets some other 'person' control what she has to do in her life. I want to tell her that. But I don't even think she'd bother. We're not forcing you, you know. If you really want to be like "that", then who are we to change you back. Hey if you're reading this, I want the old Amy back. =( The girls do too, you know. You're missing a whole lot. Sigh.. I hate to think that I won't be spending my last year here with you.. im leaving really, really soon.. & I know that you know.. =( *DEEP SIGH*

Neway, our English Presentation was held this morning. Guess what? We SCREWED. Heck, we screwed. The maximum time is actually 40 minutes but ours was only 20 minutes. Shhhit. I was sooo upset that it didn't turned out to be how I was expecting it to be. Naghirap akong gumawa ng paragraphs last night for the points tapos kanina they'd only be reading the points from the screen lang pala. Naknamputch. They were supposed to read the paragraphs I made para mahaba yung explanation ng points na nasa screen. Eh they didn't read from the paper eh! They just read the short points from the screen! Tuloy, 20 minutes lang. ASAR! Pati yung seatmate ko xobrang asar. St0opeed talaga! GRR! Hainakuh.. I gotta go na nga, I should be studying now eh I have Geo test tomorrow.. wish me luck.. =) Ciao..

2005-04-24T13:43:00.000+08:00

What type of gangsta are you? by primeanarchy

Your name:

Your color:

Your gangsta name:

Monsta' Nutz

How you get shot:

Trying to freestyle for $$.

Your weapon:

Beer bottle you stole from a trashcan.

Your bling:

Your brotha's fake rolex.

Your ride:

You can't afford no ride, wanksta.

Your pimpage percent:: 96%

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2005-04-24T13:39:00.000+08:00

Meet Your Inner Vampire by efui
Your name :
Age :	302
Weaknesses :	You're a bit afraid of the dark but the sunlight could kill you.
Special powers :	You can sometimes hypnotise humans for short periods of time.
Place of residence :	A graveyard full of old trees, stone steps and shadows.
Feeding habits :	You never kill your victims, but feed on them once and then leave them alone.
Appearance :	Long, curly reddish hair on a ponytail, pale blue eyes. It's scary and beatiful at the same time how your veins are clearly visible beneath translucent skin.

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2005-04-24T13:36:00.000+08:00

How Crazy Are You? by ChaoticThief
User Name
Favorite Color
Gender
What Psychosis You Have	Bi-Polar
When you are Diagnosed	October 3, 2012
What it makes you do	Nothing at all..not even breathing

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2005-04-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?
How will you commit suicide?	You will drown yourself
How many tries will it take?	41
When will you commit suicide?	April 12, 2047
What will your suicide note say?	The voices in my head told me that this was the only way

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2005-04-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	irresistable
Your smell is...	beautiful
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	unique

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2005-04-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

Wee! New layout! ^__^ I made it myself,, my first ever self-made layout. Wahaha..

Ting & I. During lesson time yan pero pa-cute parin sa cam. xb

Waaaaa! He's such a hottie! <3

2005-04-20T20:10:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. I just had a refreshing warm shower.. *feels good* Hehe. Woops.. not so good.. my stomach needs to be fed. As usual, I'll have cereal again as my dinner. Weird, eh? =b Hmm, I've been wondering lately.. why my period hasn't come yet.. =| I mean it's almost the end of the month and hinde parin dumating.. does that mean... NO WAY! There is no freakin way and besides, I've got nobody to do it with noh.. =b haha! Nahh, maybe im skippin this month again..
Hm.. I've noticed somethin.. Don't you guys think that cases of teenage pregnancy nowadays are increasing? Well, sila naman kase eh,, hinde makapagintay! xb wehehe..
I could'nt believe that this freakin "If you love me, you'll do it with me" cliche still exist. Im talkin about cases which comes under this stupid cliche, aite. Guys who uses that fawkin phrase are nuthing but jerks. Then in the end, the girl would be left alone, child-bearin. Eh di talo nanaman ang girls. Mga jerks talaga. Palibhasa they don't get pregnant. Jerks! So girls, IF your boyfriend EVER use that phrase, slap him. Don't give in. Wehehe! =b
My seatmate ain't talkin to me. I have no idea why. But I find her so pathetic. Seriously. I'll tell you WHY. We had Accounts test kase that day. We tested on errors, trial balance, appropriation & current A/cs. Eh sabe nia saken na she doesn't know a single thing about the appropriation & current A/c daw. So I think she was expecting me to share my answers with her [since she thinks im a smarty ] So on our test day, I think she saw my paper with balance on both sides of my appropriation & current A/c. She asked me whether I knew how to do the question. I answered her honestly naman, I told her that I wasn't sure enough whether my balance was right. Then right after we handed our test paper, she never talked to me. All the way, until the next day, which is today. I even texted her yesterday asking whether she was mad with me & I said sorry pa ha! She said she wasn't. She said, she's just pissed because of her tuition teacher. How am I suppose to believe that she isn't pissed with me eh she talks and laugh with our other classmates, exceptionally me. Now, pathetic or what? GEEZ. Hinde nia lang kase alam kung panu ako magalit. I wanna say something kaso baka maka-offend pa ako. Pambihira. We got back our paper kanina, and I got a 74%. Hinde ko alam kung mag-guilty ako na hinde ko cia pinakopya. Err.. am I being too nice? =| Tapos I felt bad tuloy kahapon kase feeling ko im so useless.. like, nobody cares about me, ganun, ganito.. feeling suicidal ako kahapon. I wanted to jump off from my bedroom window. x) Pero I seeked for God's guidance, I cried myself to sleep & then I woke up feeling better, atleast. Sigh.. =/ Welcome to my life..
Nga pala,.. imma start to pack my stuffs *sniff* na soon kase wala na me time kapag after O Level pa me magp-pack.. O Level ends on the 23rd kase & my flight would probably be at the end of the month.. Seriously, AYOKO NA UMUWI SA PINAS. I have my reasons. Spending Xmas & New Year looking at the walls.. *tss..!* But those are'nt my only reasons! I have some personal reasons too! *roll-eyes* My *advance* birthday wish is that I hope I'd still be here for my Graduation day.. ='( My sched is so bombed narin for the approaching months cause sunod sunod ang tests/exams ko.. waaaaah! But im happy kase kahit na with all of those stuff wighing me down, I can still manage to get good marks. ^__^ My gratitude to my folks.. for being very understanding & supportive.. *mwah!* Hehe.. unlike last year, I was a lazy girl that I flunked almost each and every subject. Yea, you'd expect nuthing from me kapag tinamad ako ng xobra. xb haha..
I have a problem. Wala pa akong course eh. =b Sabi ni papa tuloy ko nalang daw yung BS Bio ko.. eh ay0ko na nun eh.. ang gulo kase, wala ak0ng maisip.. pambihira talaga.. =|

2005-04-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

Some crayzee p0ems we found at the b0okstore..

"My friends never seen Italy,
they never been to France,
but yesterday at recess,
they say my underpants!"

"When you grow old,
and think you're sweet,
take off you socks,
and smell you feet!"

Haha LOL!

2005-04-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

Shet.. im leaving on November. I.. am.. so.. sad. *cries* Hinde ko maaabutan debu ng beshie ko! I mean,, that is the only way we could see each other again, PERSONALLY. And it's her big day! See how sad my life is.. *sniff*

Me : Dito magd-debu si Ren! [*my bestfriend] Uwi cia dito sa December! **with a big smile on my face
Mom : Sa December?
Dad : Hinde ka na makakaabot uuwi ka ng November..
** I gave him a fascinated look..
Dad : Ayaw mo na umuwi?
Me : November? Pero yung results ko po sa January pa lalabas eh!
Dad : Hinde na pwede hintayin yung results mo kase ang exam sa Philippines sa Nov/Dec. Kung pwede nga sana sa January ka umuwi..

I hate this. My exam ends on the 23rd of November then after that I'd be so busy packing my things already. I hate this! I won't even be spending my 16th birthday here with my friends! I HATE THIS! I HATE THIS! This is not good..

Anyway, my folks were watching the videos they recorded when we went back to Philippines last year.. They watched ate Franzs' debut. Kakamiss.. =) Pero I saw him again. Shet naman oh.. My mom kept teasing me pa, manliligaw ko raw, boyfriend ko raw. Yes, boyfriend ko. Before. Hinde na ngaun..! Tapos nung when they went to Enchanted pa.. waah.. pangasar.. =( pero aius lang.

Hmm.. kanina we had our presentation rehearsal. It started at 2.50 so we had enough time to stroll sa town. I went with my seatmate. My ever baliw na seatmate. Had our lunch at KFC. I had fried & whipped potato.. yum! ^__^

Me : Ting, I want a boyfriend.
Ting : Me too.
Me : ..and a baby girl.
Ting : You think I don't want a baby? But I don't want to give birth!

We looked at each other and started laughing. Hehe.. I love those kind of jokingly conversations.. I mean like when all you talk about are craps.. Haha! I bought a book & a Von Dutch bag. Yay! We went back to school at 2.45 and we were 11 minutes late for the rehearsal. Woops.. hehe! When we entered the AVA room, it was already dark inside. Everyone had a good laugh before we started because the boys messed with some pics. Hehe! It was really funny, everyone was laughing their heads off including our teacher. Yea.. I like her, she's really cool! She acts teen-ish/gangster-ish. \m/ We presented our powerpoint project, even tho it was only halfway done. Im not in a rush to finish it, because our presentation is shifted to next week. Whew~ Bad news? Tests 2 are approaching. Geez. Btw, imma get a digi cam on august! Yihee! ^__^

2005-04-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

Just some stupid repost! Read on! Hehe!

* dalawang kalbo, nag-sabunutan.

* Capt. Hook dumaan sa Quiapo,
pinirata!

* Palaisdaan, nasunog!

* Tahanang Walang Hagdan, inakyat!

* Bakla sumali sa away, napasubo!

* Bagong tuli nagyabang, lumaki ang
ulo!

* Unanong madre, napagkamalang
penguin!

* Bulag nakapatay, nagdilim daw ang
paningin!

* Iceman nanood ng porno, nag-init!

* Tindera ng suka, tinoyo!

* Teacher nagkamali, tinuruan ng
leksyon!

* Lolo naakusahang nang-rape, pero
sa korte.. biktima ayaw tumayo!

* Eroplano nag-crash, lahat ng
pasahero namatay sabi ng mga survivor!

* Basurero nagsampa ng kaso,
binasura!

* Dahil may reklamo, eskwelahan ng
mga bingi nag-noise barrage!

* Tubero, nagka-tulo!

* Lalaki natagpuang pugot ang ulo,
inaalam pa kung buhay!

* Barbero tumestigo sa krimen, ayaw
paniwalaan!

* Misis ng photographer, nakunan!

* Tindera ng tubig, namatay sa uhaw!

* Kaso ng pilay, nilalakad!

Hahaha lol!

2005-04-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

Im concurrently researching for our English Presentation Project.. I've just submitted my Geography Presentation & now we have English.. Great. I have to finish off this powerp0int pr0ject before the 13th because our presentation is on the 13th! Could you imagine that!? I've only got 6 days left to finish off this project! Darn it! Our t0pic is about Sexual Harassment.. interesting, eh? xb Hahaha! Oh well imma b0unce off na.. I still have a wh0le lot of researching to do.. Ciao!

2005-04-06T08:43:00.000+08:00

Haha.. im in our computer lab right now.. We're doing our Internet News Research on Malay. I was br0wsing around and I found that picture. Yep,, there's gonna be another Disney On Ice Show this April! It's called Princess Classic. Darn it Im dying to go but I couldn't afford to buy the tickets.. xb

Look look! =)

Prince Ali & Princess Jasmine :: Aladdin

Ariel & Sebastian :: Little Mermaid

Belle..

Cinderella..

2005-04-04T05:45:00.000+08:00

:: What HURTS ::

:: letting go of a person you've just learned to love

:: reminiscing the good times you shared together

:: shielding your heart to love somebody

:: trying to hide what u really feel

:: trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from ur eyes

:: loving a person too much

:: giving up someone you never thought of giving up

:: having the right love at the wrong time

:: taking the risk to fall in love again

:: hiding ur relationship from someone else

:: controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend

:: thinking of his every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you

:: letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper

:: holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out

:: falling inlove with someone you didnt mean to fall inlove with

:: finding the perfect guy.. with only one problem.., he doesnt love you

:: helping the one you love court your friend

:: seeing the one you love crying for someone else

:: the waiting also hurts like hell

:: having to hear "..I've met someone"

:: agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'

:: asking his freedom back because 'he'd be happier with her'

:: asking you to 'forget that everything happened and be 'normal' friends again

:: hearing that you're treated as a li'l sis

:: sharing his future plans for the girl with you

:: you stopped being friends because his gf asked him to

:: being denied in front of people

:: telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he was with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame'

:: he told you he'd be leaving you to return to his ex

:: breaking someone's heart

:: fighting for that one thing that would make you happy

:: PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying..

:: PRETENDING to be strong.. and RECOGNIZING your weakness lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have..

:: being with someone you can't actually love..

:: pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love..

:: being IN LOVE..

:: letting go even if you really don't want to.. having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision

:: seeing the person you love hurt because of you.. and not being able to help that person..

:: having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he/she doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before

:: having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable

:: admitting that you love someove despite his imperfections

:: finding out that the more you try to hate him, the more you end up loving him, perhaps even more than before

:: realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up

:: the thought that this guy, used to really love you and you loved him aswell but you didn't give enough and he gave up on you

:: Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else..

:: making a promise.. and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered.. the commitment is no longer there..

:: the hardest thing about love - believing it exists.

After you've been hurt.. learn to forgive.. learn to trust and love again

OUCH.

2005-04-01T19:44:00.000+08:00

Happy April Fool! Err. Hehe! Grabe there's no April Fool spirit ngaun! How boring.. =/ Im alone now *again* and it's raining heavily outside. Our first friday class kanina went fine. Jet came over kanina to do his pr0ject. He had lunch with us din. Usap kame, & he t0ld me h0w seri0usly boring it is in here and is dying to go back to the Philippines. Haha! p0or fella.. x) Jet is my childh0od friend. I vividly remember whenever we visit their place, we w0uld play all kinds of stuffs. Hehe! th0se times.. =) Ahh! Thunder! I hate thunderst0rms whenever im al0ne.. it freaks the hell out of me. Lol! Oh well i've got nuthing to write na. I guess imma b0unce na. I g0tta eat my dinner & since im dependant f0r tonight, i g0tta make my own dinner. Ahaha! Ciao! ^__^

2005-03-31T19:43:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. finally blogspot is back. =) Im all alone right now. Momskie attended a dinner party with my sis. I've got nothing else to do, so im blogging. I have 3 piercings na! ^__^ Haha. I went to the saloon yesterday for a hair treatment and so I pierced my ear narin. Haha! I now have 2 piercings on my right ear. I could still feel the pain tho.. It takes 1 week before I could change the earring. Im planning to have another piercing on my left ear after my O Levels. ^__^ Sa ear catridge. Hehe.. astig! Neway we had our individual pictorial na kanina lang. After recess, everyone in the class were busy putting their neckties on and the girls fixing themselves. Vain. Haha! Like im not! x) And then everyone headed to the conference r0om. The backgr0und sucked, it was cl0udy dark blue. Haha! & It wasn't over!, we continued fixing ourselves. See h0w vain we are! Lol! x) Nagaagawan ng mirrors. Punas ng tissue sa face. Suklay dito, suklay d0on. Inaayusan ang isat isa. Haha! Nakakatuwa! I was kinda nerv0us when it was time for my turn. xb The ph0tographer was like, sit d0wn facing 45 degrees, fix y0ur tie, push back one side of the hair, straight body, chin up, look at the camere, smile. Tsk! Ang daming arte! Lol. He t0ok 2 shots of me and I was d0ne. Phew! I stayed a while to watch the others. s0me of them were really funny! Hehe! I then decided to go back to class. I reached the classr0om and f0und my only my seatmate & our Chem teacher inside. Wh0a.. the class was empty. Astigness. We g0t back our test paper. I was so relieved. Teacher was happy f0r me. My seatmate wanted to kill me. x) Na perfect ko Chem ko! Yihee! I t0p the class! ^__^ wh0a.. im no smarty pants, perhaps it was just an unexpected miracle! Hahaha! But then, line of 8 is not a g0od mark yet. Im aiming f0r a line of 9. Yuck, geek. Haha! Altleast i've made my parents pr0ud. =) And im h0ping they w0uld buy a 7610 f0r me. Wahaha. Yihee! April f0ol is t0morrow! Better watch out, guys. Haha! At the same day, our Friday classes starts. Gawd. =( Our only off day is Sunday. Im s0o0o stressed! Damn it! On saturday is our Family Potrait [class pic, the class calls it Family Potrait x)] And on Sunday, the class w0uld be going to RiverView Poolside for the magazine class activity. I'm not g0ing. Yea, my ch0ice. So where am I g0ing? Yea, im g0ing f0r an educati0nal trip instead. A place called tuiti0n. God, my life is so b0ring. x|

2005-03-30T18:43:00.000+08:00

Waaah! School re-opened today. First thing in the morning, we had a freakinn assembly. Haha! Got our D Maths test 1 paper today & yay! ^__^ I passed! I got a Credit. Damn, first time in my secondary history. Hahaha! Neh0ots, didn't bl0gged yesterday because the DSL m0dem got freaked. Sigh~ yesterday was Easter sunday so yeahh we went to church. Second mass, as usual. I was sooo sleepy during the mass! 0=) It took a long time pa kase there was Baptisms. The mass ended at 11 sumthin and it usually ends at 10.30. Wooooh! Went out of the church and Arvy saw me. He was with Conan. He introduced Conan to me, this time personally. We shook hands and I did not even knew papa was there and he saw the whole scene! Ahaha! Good thing he did not mention anything about it. Lol! Gawd, it was the first time again that I ever held a guys hand.. *deep sigh* Okay, what am I saying here!? Haha! Moving on.. Guess what..? Im stressed again. =( We have so many projects nanaman especially in English! Damn it. Our individual graduation pictorial is on thursday. And class pictorial is on the 2nd of April. I'll post the pics once it is developed. =) Man, I can't believe im graduating.. Time flies really, really fast! April is approaching and so we have 5 months left before the O Level. Gawd.. Papa said a while ago that I might be going back to Phils on November. So I could take my entrance exam on December. Which means too, that I would be spending my 16th birthday, Christmas & New Year there. In my mind, I was like, holy.. shit. There is no friggin way Im leaving on November! Because I have plans too! Waaaah! =( I have a sad life, don't you think? =P If only, I could continue my studies in Australia. [Canning, damn it.] I don't think im ready to go back to my country. It just suck. Im not ready. But hey, he said 'MIGHT'! ^__^ So I still have hopes! Hahah! Perhaps I could convince them. Since I have to wait for my O Level results, which might come out at the end of January. That is already a valid reason, right!? Wahahaha. Im hoping that there won't be any December entrance exam in Lasalle. Hahahaha!

2005-03-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

--depressed mode--

I just chatted with Achie Alpha in msn.. I told her about my friggin lovelife problem. Honestly, she's the only person who understands my situation. She was giving me advices and ako naman todo iyak lang. Hinde ko napilitan, I had to cry it out. It hurts inside eh. Badly.. I realized na ako yung my pr0blem. Hinde ako makapagmove on. Pero e2 na, im ready & willing to leave it all behind. What i've been d0ing for the past m0nths.., damn.. it was all non-sense craps. We live in different w0rlds.. & He does not deserve me. He deserves s0meone better.. Someone.. who would be there for him whenever he needs her.. Kung sino man yung dadating sa life nia na bago.. sana it would be someone who won't hurt him and would love him like I did (still do..) And past will be past. Second chances? Time will tell. Hinde rin naman ako umaasa.., and ayokong umasa. I'll leave it to Fate. I STILL LOVE HIM.. but I have to let go.., even if it hurts like hell inside..

A song especially dedicated to him..

Before I Let You Go
Freestyle

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you loved me
Made me feel oh so right

But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and every day I think of you
Holdin' back the tears
I'm trying with all my might

Because you've gone and left me standing all alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow
On my own...

But baby before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're list'nin
''Coz it's true, baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say it... I love you

I wish that It could be just like before
I know I could've given you so much more
Even though you know
I'd given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and every day I reminisce
'Coz baby it's you
That i'm always dreaming of...

Because you've gone and left me standing all alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow
On my own...

But baby before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're list'nin
''Coz it's true, baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say it...

Cause letting love go
Is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
And I know someday
Somehow, I'll find a way
To leave it all behind me
'Guess it wasn't meant to be
But baby...

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're list'nin
''Coz it's true, baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say it... I love you..

2005-02-23T14:41:00.000+08:00

Weebee..

Happy 21st National Day, Brunei! But,, nothing ever beats the 20th National Day,, EVER! It was really extravagant, but it was a real blast! For me & Miez.. *ahum!* heehee! For the first time, we did not participate in flag waving this year.. hm.. but the boys are involved in the marching thingy.. wahaha! The girls are always lucky. LOL! ;b

New blog. =) actually it's not a new one.. it's an old one,, i never used it til' now. neway,, today is a public holiday so here i am just bummin at home.. xb haven't took a sho, haven't even eaten my breakfast or my lunch yet,, even tho my stomachs' rumbling now.. haha! im just so bored.. not goin anywhere today.. sucks. imma bounce off now but i'll be back later.. ciao peepz!